You were just so little, and you couldn't eat like you needed to. And mommy worried and worried until we figured out what you needed..
This post has been a couple of weeks in the making. I hadn't written it because I wanted us to get to place of knowledge and decisions before I did. I wanted to have complete information so no one else worries. First off, both the babies are healthy and doing really well.
However, we were having some weight gain issues with both. Jonah in particular.
I do not want to offer up a plate of excuses, and honestly, when it comes down to it, it's our families decision as to what is best for ALL of us. Let me just say, I have yet to be able to be successful at breastfeeding my children and that does not make me happy. It's complicated and difficult, and at 6 weeks with Jarvis, when he was failing to thrive, losing his hair, and NOT healthy, we made the decision to switch to formula. It was the right decision then, and it's the right decision now.
Joelle was always a better nurser, and if it had just been her, I feel like we would have been successful. She was gaining, and just a bit slower than the 'normal' suggested track. Jonah really struggled, had an extremely painful latch, and was gaining much, much too slowly. After what had happened with Jarvis, I knew the warning signs and I wanted to nip it in the bud before it got worse. Jonah has been on formula for just about 2 weeks now. He finally started gaining, but still, much slower than I was comfortable with.
He just did not feed well. Every bottle feeding was a struggle to get formula into him, and he needed to be burped VERY often as he sucked in lots of air. He would eat for 30 minutes and get just an ounce and a half before he passed back out from exhaustion. I just felt like something was not going right.
After meeting with the lactation consultant, and several pediatricians, we ended up with a big question mark and a referral to a Pediatric Occupational Therapist. We visited him yesterday morning and it was a big relief for me. The OT recognized his organization issues when it came to sucking, swallowing, and breathing at the same time and said he was feeding about how you would expect a baby who was born at 34/35 weeks to eat. We aren't sure what's causing it (low muscle tone in his neck/jaw or a posterior tongue tie which no doctor in Minot is trained to diagnose), but with a few tips and tricks, he is already eating much better and not sucking in as much air. I anticipate this is just a maturity thing, and as he gets bigger and is not exhausting himself eating he will get better at it. For now, we have been able to get closer to 3 oz in him at every feeding and I feel that his weight gain will increase!
And on that note, we have moved Joelle over to formula as well. The OT feels that attempting to get Jonah back breastfeeding is not an option for a couple of months because he doesn't have the muscle tone, and I have come to the decision that I can not be what I need to be for my family while nursing, pumping, and bottle feeding twins.
I am happy my babies are eating well and growing, and ultimately, that is what is most important to me. I am saddened that, once again, I was unable to be successful at breastfeeding, but I am very thankful for formula and that my babies can still get what they need. Joelle downs over 4 oz at every feeding and she has REALLY chunked up over the past week.
They have another weight check on Friday and I'll post what they are then. But as of the 29th, Jonah had just passed his birth-weight at 6lbs 12 ounces and Joelle was catching up at 6lbs 4 ounces.
And just because I can't post a picture of just one of them.... look at her little mohawk :)
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